Yeesh, are we already that close to Christmas? Well, you would think so given that every room in the house (minus the office, that's the dark side) has a Christmas tree in it. The sewing room has two! But it doesn't feel like it yet. We only had a sprinkling of snow - which is awesome. I hate that fluff. But perhaps it really would feel more like Christmas with it around. My birthday is in a handful of weeks, I hate that day, but I'm putting a positive spin on it, I'm going to donate to my favorite animal shelter. :)
A Month of Reflection
HealthI've missed work in excess to the point that I'm working as much as I did when I was a teenager, which is next to nothing. I can't stand it but I'm trying to be more forgiving toward myself. If you're hurting like you're dying inside, you have to take time to address that and unfortunately you lose pay as a result. I started physio therapy in early November and my physio therapist believes the majority of my pain is related to damage to my pelvic floor. She doesn't like me working at the factory because it's not exactly ergonomic. In the long run it would be better to find something else, and I've known that, but it's the most accommodating job I have had. I don't think multiple absences would go over very well with a new employer. I recently met with a gastroenterologist, he has some concerns about my family history and my year long bout of fevers and pain. I've given samples and I'm due for a scope in January. And I finally have a new family doctor who I get to see on Friday.
I hope to feel like a normal human being come spring time!
ShoppingSomething I shouldn't do but have done is shop. Lord, why?! I gotta put a cap on it, no more shopping!! Black Friday sales sucked me into purchasing a new pair of shoes from YRU for $111 CAD - yikes! I'm not allowed to wear high heels for awhile so I need more flat shoes, and the Tune sneakers in tie-dye were like my 90's dream shoes. I'm stoked to receive them and wear them with my raver pants, but the buying experience with YRU hasn't been great so far...you get to read about that later. I also bought this dress from Urban Outfitters. I don't shop there regularly. It's not my scene but I desperately wanted a red velvet dress for Christmas. I've wanted one for years. I bought it with some of my wedding money. Last week I got a new pair of pjs from Ardene's with flaming marshmallows on them. I also bought some stretch velvet from Fabricland plus sewing notions and at something like $300 total I'm done buying shit. I've resorted to selling off my old shoes and clothes to pay for these things. It's not a bad thing, I needed to get rid of it all, I guess I just needed that extra push from being poor again lol. I'm really glad I'm not doing gift giving this year. >.<
SewingI've sewn a few things on and off over the months. I tapped out on my Halloween costume, all that hand sewn tulle was destroying my sewing spirit so it's on hiatus. Instead I decided I needed a hoodie (image here), but like an idiot I forgot to make sure it was the right material. I used a medium weight stable knit, which would be good for a summer hoodie but it's not thick enough to survive the Canadian winter. It was made from a pattern my friend let me borrow when we were sixteen. I didn't know she would die. I would have honestly made the attempt to return it to her if I could've seen that coming, now I sort of feel like a dickhead lol. But, it's made for a very sentimental pattern. I can make a hoodie from it knowing that she made a hoodie from it, and it feels like, on some spiritual level, that we're connected. It's quite sweet. I'm making a real winter hoodie out of it next and this time I'll make fewer mistakes! I'm also working on knocking off a skirt from Urban Outfitters. I really like the skirt from Silence & Noise but at $72 CAD (plus something like $12 shipping) I could not justify purchasing it. For a fucking skirt?! Ridiculous! Instead I'm knocking it off. I've already drafted the pattern and I'm ready to get started. When finished it should only have cost me something like $20. Huge difference and here is when you truly see the benefit of sewing. Not like pajamas... I was tempted to make a pair when I realized it'd cost more than buying them ready made! Yarrgh!
There is no shortage of velvet in the sewing room right now. I have a dark blue velvet that I call "nightshade", I'm planning on making a top out of it. I have a dark green velvet for the skirt, a blood red velvet for whatever my heart desires, a black velvet for god knows what, a stable burgundy velvet that I might use in corsetry some day and a bright red velvet that I would like to see made into a jacket. Velvet. Get some!
I also have this awesome holographic print fabric I've had stashed for nearly ten years. I'm planning on making a circle skirt out of it. I have a cheetah print knit that I'm going to make into a sexy wiggle dress and a metallic woven fabric for a top. The sewing projects are literally piling up in the corner of my room. I have to get on top of them and punch them out over the holiday so I can have a new wardrobe come springtime! Of course I'll keep track of it here.
Obviously sewing is a big part of Bien Aimée. I'd like to get back to doing mood boards now and again. I was pleased with the response to my social anxiety post and I have plans to further develop it into another two additional parts. I've done a lot of self exploration and I'm learning quite a bit, a helluva lot more than I did when I had a psychologist lol. So I'd like to share those experiences and insights with my readers because I want people to know they're definitely not alone, I share your struggles. I have a product review coming up. I think I might have a few of those next year. I'll talk more about this in the New Year's post.
What have you been up to, lovelies?