A few thoughts on November...I felt it was necessary to give an update for the month of November so that you will understand where I'm at. This is going to be a very difficult month for me, for a number of reasons which all seem to be connected. In just a few weeks I will be undergoing a hysterectomy. If you are not familiar with the term, it means that I'm having my uterus removed. Before you say "aw" and feel sorry for me, I have to let you know this is a good thing. My tubes are already tied because I don't want children so I won't bemoan the loss of my reproductive ability. If anything, I'll be celebrating it! I'm having a hysterectomy so I can have a better life.
My uterus has always been the bane of my existence. Ever since I was a little girl I suffered from extreme abdominal pain and my doctor could never determine the cause. When I began menstruating I struggled with chronic pain and bleeding. There was even a time where I bled heavily for six months straight. As I grew older, the pain worsened. There have been times where I've been so debilitated by menstrual cramps that I've had to take days to recover in bed. My uterus is a cold and evil thing and I can't wait to get it the hell out of my body. Thankfully my new gynecologist offered me a hysterectomy. She said, "why should you suffer with a bad uterus if you don't want children?" Exactly!!
My gyno is leaving my ovaries in tact, so I won't have to go on hormone therapy. I will have to take two weeks off to recover. Apparently the two weeks is only the initial recovery period, it will take a month before I feel better and a whole six months before my body "settles"; I'm assuming that means the organs are shifting into place. That being said, I might not be sewing as much as I wanted to for this month. It also causes problems with my ability to work. I'm currently seeking additional employment because we are very nearly broke. I don't want to tell employers right off the bat that I'm undergoing a surgery that will affect my ability to lift things. Say if I were to be employed tomorrow, I'd hold off on mentioning it, however, if someone were to offer me a job closer to my surgery date, I'd be honest and would say that I couldn't start until two weeks afterward. Either way, it's a difficult situation. If I were to reschedule my surgery it could take months to get in for the operation again, and I've had all that I can take of this chronic pain. I don't want my surgery to harm my chances of getting employed, but if I rescheduled my operation the pain from my menstrual cramps would cause me to take time off of work anyways... I'm between a rock and a hard place.
As you may know, November in Canada is a pretty somber month. Remembrance Day is coming up and as citizens we're to honor the soldiers who have served our country. It's good to remember the sacrifices that people have made for our country, but at the same time it can be very, very depressing day. To contrast that, this is the time of year when we begin to celebrate Christmas. As weird as it may sound, our Christmas parades and festivals start right about now and they continue across the province all month long. I'm not sure why these parades take place in November but I'm guessing it has to do with the weather being better than in December. It's fun to see. I'm a kid at heart so I'm amused by these sorts of things lol. Although I'm not a huge fan of Christmas (I prefer Halloween) I'm happy to see joyful things like these parades because it's been such a hard year for us. Anything positive and happy is helping to lessen my stress. I've already strongly considered bringing out my Christmas decorations early.
Speaking of decorations...because I missed the boat on selling Halloween crafts, I think I'd like to push for making Christmas crafts for my Etsy shop now. I have two vintage coats I plan on selling, but I think I'll try selling them in my city first because it's easier. Hopefully this time I'll be successful at getting something done!! And hopefully I can squeeze in some sewing on the side. I've been meaning to finish a jacket for almost a year now, and I have a winter coat that's been incomplete for almost two years. I think things like dresses and housecoats would be much easier to sew though. I suppose I'll make whatever my schedule allows!
What are your plans for November?